This is not a Rant

Yes lemme say it once again, that this is not a rant, or anything of that sorts.

I just want to make it clear to people out there, that I value my friends more than anything else in the world, maybe even more than family. fucked up as it may be though, it is true. i'll put friends over anything else if it comes down to a choice. I think I've also said it before, but once I consider someone a friend, he/she will be a friend for lfe. Maybe i'm naive, but thats how it is.

Therefore, with that being said, I really hate seeing my friends fall into a slump, be it mentally or physically, and if i know someone's going through a bad patch, i am the type who will show support and concern despite my brutish and barbaric behavior at times. Call me meddlesome and "kepo"if y'all like, but fact is, i can't stand watching friends getting all down and doing nothing for them.

Therefore sometimes i feel quite disappointed when friends of mine brush off my concern as merely "a-want-to-know" feeling. I really don't understand how can people think that the genuine concern that i show can be attributed to me being a future reporter and its just part of my "job" nature to pry into people's private life and spread word to the whole world. I'm not that type of person, fyi, and its quite disappointing that people should see me like that.

I'll admit, that i am also a very sensitive person at times, despite my outwards personality, and sometimes i feel hurt/insulted when I'm being taken for granted. I really dislike it when i try to show support and help, but in return i get words of reply that do not reflect the actual situation. I am not complaining, i just feel that I'm constantly misunderstood, and sometimes its a bit hurting on my part, especially after i give it everything i've got.

Nevertheless, that doesn't change my approach towards how i treat my friends. i just hope that sometimes, they try to understand my intentions better before jumping to any sort of silly conclusions and rejecting good faith from me.

there yer go, i hope this post is a lil bit more enlightening on who I am.

cheerios